Confessions of a Mary Priestess
Last Wednesday, just before our first Mary & Magdalene Priestess Training class, I had an experience that reminded me yet again how important it is to meet our own shadows with honesty and grace.
Right before the session began, some technical issues arose. In the swirl of energy, while holding the full container of the opening, I grew irritable. What spilled out was what I can only describe as “throwing energy” in frustration. It was, frankly, a little ugly. I quickly apologized, but the moment lingered with me.
As I sat with it later, I realized this instance revealed something deeper. Under stress, I sometimes slip into blame ~ whether directed outward or even silently held inside. That recognition was not comfortable. Yet it was also illuminating. Because of the work I’ve been doing with my beloved partner, I could see the pattern more clearly. Without those relational mirrors, I might have missed the lesson entirely.
When I acknowledged this dynamic to him ~ admitting that I have, at times, carried blaming energy ~ I could feel how much it meant. He received my words as music to his ears. My willingness to see this part of myself allowed him to relax, to forgive, and to meet me in the tenderness of our shared humanity.
In this way, the incident before class became a blessing in disguise. It showed me that even in my role as leader, I am being trained ~ again and again ~ by life itself. Leadership is not about perfection, it’s about the courage to repair. Each time we recognize a shadow, apologize, or shift an old pattern, we open the temple doors wider for everyone around us.
What’s more, I sensed that my apology was not simply about mending a single exchange. It was also an initiation for all present into the deeper codes of priestesshood: integrity, humility, and love. These are the qualities that make the path strong. By showing that I, too, stumble, I remind others that priestesshood is not about rising above our humanity but about embracing it fully, transforming it through grace.
In meditation with the Marys the next day, I received the deeper understanding: This moment was not a failure but a weaving. They showed me that what unfolded became part of the larger tapestry of the training. Instead of being a blemish, it was a thread of authenticity, strengthening the whole. They reminded me that this very tempering ~ meeting the raw edge of one’s shadow, taking responsibility, and allowing it to refine the heart ~ is central to what it means to become a Mary priestess.
And how fitting that this all arises during the powerful eclipse portal we now walk together. This September, we stand in the corridor between two eclipses ~ times especially devoted to releasing old patterns, transmuting shadow, and anchoring new gifts of empowerment. My small but potent initiation last weekend felt like a personal mirror of this larger cosmic initiation, reminding me that we are each being asked to pass through the eclipse gates with grace, courage, and devotion.
The blessing that came through is this:
“Beloved daughter of the Rose, may all residue of tension and self-judgment be washed from your field. May only the fragrance of truth and the clarity of love remain. May your words always heal as they flow. May your heart remain light and trusting. And may those who walk beside you feel honored to witness both your humanity and your divinity. All is whole. All is well. All is Rose.” 🌹
May this story remind you that when shadow arises, it is an invitation to honesty, repair, and deeper love. These moments, far from failures, are initiations into luminous integrity, shaping us into the very priestesses we are called to be.
And, by the way, just as I was shown how shadow can become initiation, so too will the Marys guide us this Tuesday in our Inner Sanctum Temple to transform the eclipse energies into powerful allies for our awakening.
Tender moments caring for my mother here now in Canada…I pray for her forgiveness and for her recovery. Patience, understanding, Presence. There is no judgement…
We are with you in heart-love, Pamela.
Dear Marguerite, Thank you for sharing such an honest, human experience. Oftentimes, tip to-ing around in de spiritual community. It easily feels as the people who present themselves as trachers are indeed feeling themselves above humanity. I always have felt an appreciation for the teachers who are living this journey with the rest of all of us. I always used to say when people would feel themselves flawed or a shamed. It makes you so human!!
I Am part of the wave with followers that came with the next level Soul podcast episode. The episode resonated deeply with me. As Henri Williams episode a few months before yours.
I joined in on the big live events you did before, for the Mary priestess training. Even though I felt called, I was not able to join in. But as with this blog post, I feel strongly that I am already participating on this path. Just in my own way without the guided structure.
My healing journey so far has teached me, due to triall and error. That this is, apparently, a solo journey. Tip to-ing around everywhere in the spiritual community. Take with me what resonates, but no actuall commitments. And the further i am going, the stronger the commitment to myself and the growth is becoming. For that, i will stick around. Just not within the container of the training. Thank you for all your time, sharing your knowledge and guiding everyone in the training that do participate. 🙏🏼
Thank you for sharing this, Evelien. Always trust in your own guidance and your own divine timing. We’re glad to have you as part of the Seven Sisters Community, in whatever ways suit you best.
Remember the late 60’s Paul Simon lyrics “Slow down, you move too fast…You got to make the morning last” from his “59th Street Bridge Song”… yes, ‘the blame game’…we’ve all been there, done that…exposing it to the light with love makes Life a little more groovy…smile, with love
I do remember those lyrics well! Thanks for the sweet reminder, Brian.
Beautiful and powerful share Marguerite. Thank you for your vulnerability.
Thank you, Renée! Sending love…
Thank you for sharing. These teachings are exactly what I need right now, how to integrate the shadow, old habits or moments of the uglies without judgment or shame. I often feel like I should know better, yet I still act in ways I’m not proud of. Those are the moments I spiral back and get frustrated or stuck.
Maybe it is about learning forgiveness, compassion, and unconditional love for myself and others, especially in those hard moments. But unconditional love has always been the hardest thing for me—especially loving myself just as I am.
Any practices for transforming hard emotions, turning fear into trust, and learning to love unconditionally are greatly appreciated. Thank you! 🌹
Stephanie, these are the kinds of questions that are perfect for the monthly Spiritual Counsel & Communion call in the Inner Sanctum Temple! You’re a member, so simply go to the Forum and look for the “Your Burning Questions” post; hit reply; and post your questions right there.
Since menopause, I can explode more readily much to my chagrin. It is utterly humbling. I live with my parents who are in their 90’s to help them out with things they can no longer do and boy, do I get triggered. I am in the process of reclaiming my compassion which seemed to disappear for a while. May the Marys, and lovely Anna, help me on this journey. Blessings all!
We are with you, Ahraiyanna!