On Spiritual Conflict & Being Human
There are moments when news reaches us that feels like a gut punch. Reports about the death (due to apparent suicide) of David Wilcock, was one such moment for me earlier this week.
I remember being genuinely fascinated by his show on Gaia TV, Cosmic Disclosure, for years during its heyday in the mid-teens. Conversations outside the mainstream about interdimensional beings, possible higher-up involvement with them, and the possible misuse of humans in this drama were being given a platform. Curiosity itself was being legitimized.
And like many things in the spiritual and consciousness space… it didn’t stay simple. What unfolded over time with David ~ conflict, accusations, polarization, legal disputes ~ has a familiar feeling to it. Not because the details are the same as other situations, but because the pattern is.
And if I’m honest, it’s a pattern I don’t just observe “out there.” It’s one I’ve brushed up against in my own life. Not at the same scale, maybe, but in the subtle ways that tension enters a conversation, in the moments when I’ve felt misunderstood, in the places where my own wounds or convictions have gotten activated and made it harder to stay open.
This is the part we don’t always talk about in spiritual work. We speak of awakening, truth, higher consciousness ~ but we are still human beings, carrying histories, sensitivities, identities, and deep investments in what we believe to be real.
I’ll be honest and say that I believe other forces start going to work where light is being shone in dark places. And they play right into the vulnerabilities of the actors involved ~ the wounds, the fear, the defensiveness, the ego, the need to be right or to be seen, honored, and loved.
Energy intensifies. Nervous systems get tweaked. Perception can narrow. We lose access to one another. And once that happens, things can escalate quickly.
I don’t claim to know exactly what happened in any specific situation involving David Wilcock, the organizations he was involved with, and the detractors who then swarmed like locusts, but I do recognize the terrain.
And I feel compassion for anyone who finds themselves in it. Because it’s not easy to hold clarity, humility, and openness when things become charged. It’s not easy to stay grounded when you feel attacked or misunderstood, or when you perceive injustice. It’s easy to launch fights, or fight back, and accuse others of all sorts of things, including being in collusion with the dark side itself.
This is a game the dark side loves.
These moments offer something. The ask us to reflect: Where do I tighten when I feel challenged? Where do I lose my ability to listen? Where do I start vigorously pointing fingers?
I’m not exempt from these questions. I’m inside them, like all of us. I’ve had at least one serious clash in my career that really had far-reaching ripples.
So more than anything, what arises in me right now are quiet blessings…
…for David Wilcock, may there be space for rest, reflection, and whatever healing is needed.
… for all who have been part of these dynamics, may there be insight, repair where possible, and gentleness with what has been hard.
… and for those of us walking paths of awakening, may we continue learning how to be in relationship with one another in ways that can actually hold the intensity of the truths we’re exploring.
Because I believe part of the real work is not just opening consciousness, but becoming the kinds of humans who can stay connected, even when it’s difficult.
May we be granted the strength, courage, and wisdom to do so.
Marguerite, thank you for your time and care in writing about him and the inner landscape we need to look out for. I was wondering whether this could be brought into our priestess training looking at its relevance within our/ this profession?
Thank you again, I really appreciate this piece!
Corinna M
Thank you for your appreciation, Corinna!
I resonate deeply with this article. I never knew anything about David W. but have been in the metaphysics for 45 years and have been invalidated, misunderstood, called out on Bay Area tv news and much more, simply for owning my beliefs and experiences. But here we all still are! Keep shining your light and may the darkness never trick you into despair!
Thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts, Debi.
Bless you, bless us all on our journeys as we are walking each other home …
Beautiful commentary. The polarity!
For what it’s worth, I conducted consciousness level calibrations (Hawkins scale) of the two main theories surrounding David’s passing:
1 That hetook his life cleanly (no outside influence/interference) vs 2 He was taken out (murdered via mind control-programming-directed energy weaponry).
The calculations show the former theory to be representative of falsehood, and the latter, truth. His consciousness level on the scale at the time of his passing was also in the 500 range (between peace and joy). This makes it very difficult to support the idea of suicide with no outside influence or interference.
RIP David.
Beautifully expressed! David’s passing does not take away from the truth he shared with the world. And to each of us, striving to hold the Light in this world— may we all remember to be unified in spirit, to hold community, and to support one another through these challenging times. It was not meant to be a solo endeavor!
Thank you, Marguerite, for your work!
Thank you for your lovely sharing, Jessie!
Thank you for such a sensitive post on what happened to David Wilcock. I too used to watch his show on Gaia. I saw that he was becoming very emotional and high strung. then his show ended under extreme emotional circumstances, and I lost track of him. So it did send me for the same reasons you mentioned, to hear of his death. Perhaps we will never know what really happened. I do hope he is able to rest in peace now.
Holding love and peace with you, Sterling…
I love your post. Somehow I have deep feelings for whatever happened to David Wilcock.
As you have written, may he find peace and may we all learn from his wisdom as well as his struggles.
Yes, peace… thank you, Elanne.
Amen to that, Marguerite…’speaking truth to power’ has repercussions…it can also fuel our soul purpose to shine more light on what shades our potentials…a ‘sleepless night’ can easily be vanished by a friendly smile at a grocery store when you are recognized for your ‘truth’…with love
Thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts, Brian!
So beautifully written. Thank you for your words.
Thank you, Lindsay!
I read that it was a condition or symptom that escalates that reaction from the diabetes he was developing
I am so touched by this. Thank you for writing this Marguerite.. What a beautiful demonstration of your compassionate heart.
Thank you for your lovely note, Cynthia!
Beautiful! People have big expectations of teachers especially if they have us on a pedestal…. Those expectations can become a trap and keep us from our own growth and development if we allow it. I am a creator and at time my creations grow large and something completely different has taken my attention or I have been targeted and moved on. If I stay or continue with that work I find myself having to explain why I’m doing something different.People often want their teachers to remain the same. In my 80+ years I have felt inspired to move several times to a different location and reinvent myself! That has worked well in the past but I’m now on what may be my last big outward creation…. Since creations usually take 7-10 years for stability I will be well into my 90’s and will probably stop and write a book!
Thank you for your sharing, Lyndia!
Beautiful reflection. Thank you.
Thank you, Holly!
You write so well!!!! I am very impressed and happy about the blessings and prayers you have given!!
I learn from your wisdom and strength and become stronger myself!!! Thanks
Thank you, Stefani!
Hi Marguerite, thank you for this article, very much needed this morning. 🙏
I’m holding space for a spiritual group where conflict is rising, and doing my best to lean into it with curiosity.
And I too, was touched by the death of David Wilcock. It’s pretty interesting to see how so many people connected with disclosure are leaving the planet right now.
Sending love and blessings as well, especially for David, but for all of us on a spiritual path
I’m glad to know my words felt supportive, Laura. With Love…
So sad to hear of David Wilcox suicide
May he feel loved and be healed
I’m not sure that I still accept David being gone from this stage of life. I’m holding onto the thought that he had to go into hiding. There have been examples of this in his writings. Maybe I’m under an illusion, but then again, maybe not. Only time will tell.
I 100% believe this was “suicided”
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Dear Marguerite,
Thank you for these words of wisdom and compassion around the passing of David Wilcock.
What I appreciate so much is the way you held this with both clarity and gentleness. You didn’t reduce his life, his work, or the surrounding conflict into something simple or one-dimensional. Instead, you invited us to look deeper—not only at what may happen around public spiritual figures, but also at what happens within all of us when we feel misunderstood, challenged, wounded, or activated.
That part really landed with me.
It is easy to speak about awakening, truth, consciousness, light, and shadow, but much harder to remain humble, grounded, and open when human emotions, ego, fear, grief, and spiritual conviction all collide. Your words reminded me that discernment is not only about seeing what is happening “out there.” It is also about noticing where I tighten, where I judge, where I lose compassion, and where I may forget the humanity of another person.
I also appreciate your willingness to name the reality of spiritual conflict without losing sight of personal responsibility, compassion, and the deeper invitation to grow.
May David’s soul find peace, rest, and healing.
May all who were touched by his life and work find clarity and gentleness.
And may those of us walking spiritual paths continue learning how to carry truth with humility, and light with love.
Thank you, Debbie, for your thoughtful words. We appreciate you!
Thank you for opening a space of light.
I had been watching David’s last weekly YouTube videos, and in the last one, the day before his passing, at the end of the 3.5 hours, he shared a beautiful reading on “awakening your Christ self”, worth listening to…
Maybe that is why I have trouble believing the news…
These kinds of things shock the nervous system, Beatriz, and we need to hold ourselves lovingly.