I’m back home from my trip out West and reflecting on my time there with old and new friends, including my medicine allies and the sacred beings and intelligences of the land. Not to mention one very cute, if aging, cockapoo, who was able to communicate with me fully once I got to the right vibration in ceremony with Lady Cannabis.

As you may have read a few Sundays ago, the healing of the major medicine ceremony I experienced a bit earlier in Phoenix was focused on communing with the Masculine and truly balancing Masculine and Feminine within me.

This led not only to an initiation into how to RECEIVE like never before, but also some clear directives on how to organize my day so as not to be a working machine any longer.

The message was: RELAX. Whatever you can’t get done in a day will get done the next day, and if you’re backlogged at the end of your week, it means you’ve taken on too much and need to do less.

Phew. I mention this because so many of us have been trained to overwork. This is usually based on not only outdated work ethics, but also money fears.

With the New Earth energies opening up, we have the opportunity to shift out of all that, more and more.

Relaxation leads to peace, which leads to trust, which leads to manifestation. It’s a new way of thinking about the abundance trajectory. What I’ve received (in ceremony and also from some wise friends) is that the key to creating the best future timeline is to be joyful in the present moment.

This has been a huge revelation for me, whose present moments have generally been filled with tension and anxiety.

I realized that the same approach is true for rewriting a better past. Being in the moment, being at peace, and being in joy is the perfect perch from which to reflect on the past. That new light can literally change your past in quantum ways.

The medicine I’ve been engaging in has been a great foundation for this because it has helped me not only think about but really EXPERIENCE my past in a new way. It’s helped me understand that everything was perfect as it was. There were no mistakes ~ by me or by anyone. It was all part of my learning and initiation, and it led to my deepening and my awakening as a soul.

By seeing the past in this way, my emotions toward it soften. And with that, I rewrite that timeline. It turns from dense iron to golden light.

So… there was quite a bit to rewrite about my 20 years in California during my trip. Understanding that everything and everyone was perfect for my growth ~ and this included myself, my actions, thoughts, and behaviors ~ has helped me to forgive everyone, especially myself. Forgiving myself for the times when I didn’t come from love, or when I came from judgment, fear, insecurity, jealousy, or competition. All byproducts of the deepest core wound: feeling unworthy, unloved, and separate from the Divine.

I realized that by responding to others’ negativity and insecurity with like energy, I had actually exacerbated the pain of my existence in California. This has been quite the pill to swallow and metabolize these last couple of weeks.

During the trip, one medicine ceremony with one of my favorite redwoods and one of my favorite friends led to an all-nighter of reckoning. The wind outside the house where I was staying was fierce that night, mirroring the maelstrom within. It took a lot of energy to keep grounding myself, forgiving myself and others (even the Archonic forces who originate the negative energies on our planet), and focusing as much as I could on wisdom and love. It was almost overwhelming but I think I did OK with it, although it’s taking some time for the full integration.

Some small examples of how this is reflecting in my world:

I saw a fender-detaching collision in front of me as I drove, and instead of sending thoughts of annoyance and judgment toward the driver for clearly just rushing in a non-mindful way, I sent love and prayers that all would be resolved for both parties with ease.

In the airport, I sat right across from an older bickering couple, and ended up also sitting right across the aisle from them on the plane. Instead of “What a bunch of screwed up people, he’s being a jerk to her, and oh no, I have to deal with them the whole flight,” I just offered the thought that that they were working out their stuff. Once they settled down in the plane, I saw them holding hands.

Larger examples include really pulling back anger and judgments from various colleagues and even friends from the Bay, continuing to feel in my heart the refrain from Sanaya Roman’s guide Oren: “We were all doing the best we could.”

There’s one friend with whom I noticed I was once again feeling the hackles of competition rise within me. And I realized that instead of projecting my insecurity onto her and then finding fault with her to assuage my own discomfort, that is, instead of blaming her for how I was feeling… I pivoted to look at where I’m still feeling insecurity about my own success.

Yes, the flashlight has been shone into the deepest crevices of my soul as I attempt to understand what’s making me tick so that I can do what’s needed to receive the Source Creator love I need… and that I am.

Experiencing the Source Creator love within is key for all of us right now. It’s what will make our lives and our world better. I’m fascinated to be on this path and to be supporting others in finding their True Light within, too.

PS: About that aging cockapoo mentioned earlier, who happens to be named Gus…It was fascinating to be deep into the 5^th Dimensional consciousness zone in Lady Cannabis ceremony with him. He’s not seeing, hearing, or moving so well these days, and all during my stay he’d been only vaguely friendly to me, despite my efforts to reach out. But from this different vibration, I was able to truly see what a great job he’d been doing as a companion to my friend.

As I communicated that to him telepathically, he toddled over to me on the couch and nuzzled me in striking a way he had not done before. It was apparently important to him that I saw his role and understood the value of his work. As I praised him with my thoughts and words, he expressed such gratitude, both telepathically and with his body, settling down right next to me. I was stunned to be let into his world and discover the key to him as a dog soul.

Dogs, like people, thrive on recognition and love. May we all continue to heal the unworthiness wound so that we may come to love and rewrite all of our timelines, backward and forward.