As I write this, I’m integrating the events of the eclipse, holding steady through Mercury retro, reflecting on my most controversial material yet ~ on s(e)xual abuse and alien abduction ~ which I taught in our online seminar yesterday, and getting ready to expand this information for my presentation at the Sedona Earth Origins conference next weekend.
No one could ever accuse me of shrinking back!
There are a ton of energies afoot right now, which is why everything is so intense for most people. And the eclipse portal of the last five weeks has really stirred things up even further. For me, this has had effects both personally and spiritually.
On the “Human Woman” Front – Feeling Eclipsed
There was a lot of ungrounded chaotic energy in the planning of an event I took part in… which continued right through the drive to Vermont, the gathering itself, the even longer drive home (with traffic), and the aftermath of communications.
I noticed people were bouncing off the walls in one way or another. My car ride consisted of loving and hearted people being really loud, talking incessantly, demanding music I wasn’t fond of, and basically not noticing that I had a different energy and needs. They were “all air” and I was dearly seeking grounding. I was overwhelmed and felt overlooked.
I felt eclipsed by everyone else’s bigger personalities. I was so triggered that I knew I couldn’t handle communicating my needs gracefully… so I just stayed quiet.
This is an old wound for me. It’s exactly how I felt in my stepfamily. People were acting out all over the place and squashing my sensitive self. It didn’t feel safe… and it certainly didn’t feel safe to voice anything about it. Basically ever.
With a major eclipse event I wanted to be “spiritual”… but I was just out of sorts and pissed off. Sigh.
After some heated debriefing with one of the participants in the days following, I went into a meditation with Mama Cacao and finally got to a hearted and clear place. This was a big deal for me; I recognized it as an indicator of emotional healing and development I’ve done over the last few years.
Put simply, I was able to communicate to the group in a way that lovingly and neutrally expressed that I’d had a different experience than most of them, and I suggested that in future we more mindfully take each other into account.
As awe-inspiring as it was to witness, the eclipse didn’t get me to the high spiritual state I’d wanted to experience… but it did give me something very useful. I guess it calibrates its energies to your true needs.
On the Spiritual Front – Feeling Exalted
Yesterday IndigoAngel and I offered our seminar, The Travesty of Sexual Abuse & Abduction: And How to Clear It from Your Field and the Human Matrix. As Athena Seye, our sacred space holder for the event, said, it was “epic.” To my knowledge, it’s a rare offering in our world today in terms of the way it shows the connections between the rampant sexual abuse on our planet and the interdimensional shenanigans that are going on in our dream and astral spaces. It’s also rare in that it delivers some remedies and clearing, not only for ourselves as individuals, but also for our planet.
Talking about the underworldly side of human (and beyond human) existence is a mixed bag. It’s edgy and cutting-edgy. It also always feels, for me, a bit risky, too. I don’t want to trigger people, I just want to support them in seeing at deeper levels… but sometimes you don’t know how the material will be received. I always do my best to help folks get into the guided, neutral, and loving place as they listen, as I know that energetically these are our best means of dealing with challenging information.
The information itself is uncanny, so contrary to the Corn Flakes and Rice Crispies world of 3D. It’s fascinating but wild, uncomfortable, and as intuitive as one might be, sometimes ya wonder if you’re off your rocker in pondering such concepts. Sometimes I envy people who simply “don’t go there.”
That said, teaching the seminar with Indigo, as always, was a highly activating, expanding experience. When I get together with her, the veils become thinner and we can together see more clearly what’s what… and in doing so we hopefully help others do, as well. It is a state of exultation. And in those moments, I feel totally “mission on.” I’m grateful for these collaborations.
May we all be guided by Wisdom and Truth.